Stretch and Snap

1 month, 1 week and 6 days. 43 days to be exact. I finally quit.

Tomorrow, I will officially bid farewell to my first job. Good times, but it's time to move on. I felt so bad for quitting, I couldn't even look at my leader during our one-on-one. I pulled her aside after our bells session, pulled out my 'script' and read it to her. Haha. It's funny now, but I felt incredibly stupid while doing it. I had to freaking write what I needed to say. The plan was to sort out my thoughts, scribble them down, and then, go talk to her. But, I blanked out 'cause I was so nervous and anxious, so I whipped it out of my pocket in panic the last minute. I was like, "Hey, I need to talk to you in private." "Okay, what's up?" "Uhh.. uhh.. wait." *grabs notebook and recites* Damn nerves. To top it all off, my voice was cracking while I was reading. Darnnnittt. What the hell was that?!

Anyway, she was really surprised after my little monologue. I get that. I never once complained nor showed any sign of dislike for this job. (Even though it's such a struggle for me to wake up every single day for this.) She said that she understands that today was definitely a difficult day and that I shouldn't just let one bad day pull me down. One day?! Make that 43 days!!! I finally had to confess to her that this was not what I had in mind when I signed up for the job. I gave it my all for 43 days. It's just not working for me. I never really had time for anything else. I work close to 12 hours every single day. I wake up early and go home exhausted. I am officially stressed and burnt out. Man, I feel like I've aged ten years in the past month.

It felt damn good after I let all that out. Wooooo!!

Makes me think a lot about my character though. Am I such a quitter? Should I have given it more time? Maybe I was still adjusting to everything. Hmmm... but I did give it 43 days. Besides, I was never a fan of delayed gratification. I simply didn't want to waste my precious time stuck in an unpleasant situation when I can freely move on and find better opportunities. Logical, right? So what I'm gonna do is pat myself on the back for a job well done, say I fought a good fight, kick off my heels and spend some of my hard-earned money on a fabulous weekend of much sought freedom.